Salary settled, first kick-off seminar 7 days ahead!

August 31, 2007 at 10:53 am | Posted in New Job | 1 Comment

Heya! I am going to start on the job a little later, but am lucky that they’re having a kick-off seminar next Friday which I am going to join. I have got a REALLY good feeling about my new job:-)

Pausing for a moment to think things over

August 30, 2007 at 8:04 pm | Posted in Uncategorized | 2 Comments

Today, in amid of my putting together the flat and, during pauses, reading To Kill a Mockingbird (finally! Should have done so much earlier – I still am furious about the case of Tom Robinson, and hope that Boo Radley ever came out of that house again and for good; it’s probably this read that put me into a slightly melancholy, contemplative mood), I took a step back and had look at my work: the ceiling I have been painting (speckling my hair white) and the decision I have been taking. Staying in Austria.

It’s true that I am not really keen on Germany (like I like to tell anybody who does or does not want to know) and even less than that would I want my boyfriend to have to live their (it’s easier to move from Germany to Austria than the other way around), but I couldn’t help from suddenly feeling pangs of homesickness. In a way comparable to how I felt after I had been in South Africa for ten back-to-back months when I was 23; home felt so far away and impossible to reach and yet the time of return so far away (as I had just decided I would stay for more than a year).

Similarly, the decision has now been taken, I am (most likely) going to sign a work contract tomorrow, so here I am again, with the only option being to settle in a yet again new environment. I’ve done that plenty of times before, and I am probably better at that than other people, in particular because I have learned to become absolutely self-contained. And in this first month I am ever more going to be thrown back on myself as my boyfriend is not coming to join me before October. But instead of being her by myself, I’d rather be some place HOME.

Although I am not so sure where that would be.

Another fact to increase my melancholy: an aunt of mine has been admitted to a hospital recently and is now being scanned for a possible brain tumor. I asked my brother to find out for me whether I was allowed to call her – I figured he had too, it’s the one aunt on whom I blew the whistle with child welfare after one of her daughters told me that their daddy had kicked their foster child so badly in the ribs that it could walk only with pain (the siblings had all told me stories about being beat up before). In any case, she didn’t want to, which is really sad because I know that I used to mean something to her – for being not so much of a chav as the people in her immediate environment, and for probably also given her the feeling that she wasn’t so much of a chav either (of course that’s speculation on my part).

This event led me try a little forecast of our future relationship – has she decided that I am forever not going to be part of her life? (Ironically: not part of her life for having blown the whistle on her; but what it really should read like is: not part of her life for getting to know that her children are physically abused by their father and she does FUCK ALL to stop him). And thus – fast forward – does that mean that I am not going to be allowed to her funeral? And worse: If she dies (as people sometimes do from brain tumors) will child welfare be finally wise enough to take that kid out of this family, or are they simply going to wait until he has turned into an animal himself? Aus Geschlagenen werden schließlich Schläger – those who get beaten up turn into beaters, eventually.

I’ve got a job!

August 29, 2007 at 5:51 pm | Posted in Uncategorized | 6 Comments
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That is, I have got a job offer – it’s the job I mentioned yesterday. On Friday I am going to see them again, for them to make me an offer. Let’s whether it is going to be worthwhile considering (it will be, if it doesn’t diverge too much from what we discussed on Monday).


Internet Eats My Life

August 29, 2007 at 10:34 am | Posted in Internet, Life | 1 Comment

I just realized that I yesterday I spent 2.5 hours in that café hacking into the computer, trying to get all my online chores (virtual socializing, checking the pages I always check, look at the amount in my back account decreasing…) done. That’s far too much, me thinks…

Behind the scenes…

August 28, 2007 at 5:41 pm | Posted in Blogging, German | 14 Comments

… I have been starting a German blog, the URL of which I am going to post here when the time is right. Not that I didn’t have PLENTY of other things to do – yet I feel I need a German outlet, which is my native tongue anyway. It actually feels a bit odd to write a blog in German – surprisingly, kind of as if I was further away from myself, or at least putting on some kind of voice, in order to find the right on.

I May Have a Job…

August 27, 2007 at 4:01 pm | Posted in Uncategorized | 9 Comments
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I am just returning from a marvelous job interview, one which probably proves my prior statement that you only have to wait for a job opening that matches exactly your profile. Once again, it is a position for which I feel to have just the right set of skills, although that set of skills is rarely requested: an odd mix of media savviness, being good with words and foreign languages be it as a proof-reader of micro-copy writer, the ability to enjoy solitary fumbling with online media – i.e. deciphering the output of traffic analysis tools – and an informed view on customer relationship management; CRM being something that I secretly enjoy, even though it is SUCH of a thing to be generally despised by humanities people). And: It is a part-time position, with the option to upgrade, AND I may even have the opportunity to bring in some of the things I learned in my English-teacher-years.

In two days I will know more, keep your fingers crossed for me!

Macromania (or so my brother called this pic)

August 25, 2007 at 8:58 am | Posted in Landscape, Photography | Leave a comment


Rejection letter #15

August 24, 2007 at 12:53 am | Posted in job search, rejection | 4 Comments

…came yesterday. I am now going to enhance my strategy – I sent the guy who sent me the rejection mail another one in which I asked him for just a few key words as to why it didn’t match for him. Let’s see if he is going to reply.

More destruction: Shredding the Futon

August 23, 2007 at 12:22 am | Posted in Austria | 3 Comments
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Yesterday I tore apart an entire bloody futon with a Korean kitchen knife (which worked excellently, thanks to the Austrio-Koreans!) and managed to squeeze the debris in three separate trash bags. Recycling in Austria is an often chosen essay topic for learners of German in London, I was told, and they do indeed go to great lengths when it comes to recycling here in Austria.

I used to have brown paper bags for organic waste which were collected weekly, yellow ones for packaging (excluding metal, collected every fortnight) and black ones for all the rest (collected every fortnight). Paper, metal and glass you have to take to a public garbage skip yourself.

For your garbage taxes you get six yellow bags which are always free, and three black 60l bags a year, and if you need more of those you have to pay for each of them (for the paper bags you have to pay anyway). I actually never used my black bags, and instead disposed of my ‘residual garbage’ (Restmüll) at work. There was no communal garbage collecting place in the house in which I lived, so the garbage (also the organic one!) would have had to live with me for one or two weeks. Right.

So now I had a total of twelve black bags on my hands – for 2004, 2005, 2006 and 2007 – and it looks as if I am going to need ALL of them. You may stick ANYTHING into these bags for as long as you manage to squeeze it in. And as I would have had to pay a whopping € 21,00 for any cubic meter of garbage that I brought to the municipality’s garbage dump myself (does not seem to make sense, does it?), I thought I better put my black bags to some use. Hence the futon had to be shredded.

Btw, if you have ever tried to carry a futon someplace, then you will now it feels like it is filled with mud. Trying carrying around a wet mud mattress for a while – it’s impossible. I used to think that it is the cotton that makes it so soggy – now I know better. A futon’s innards consist of both cotton AND rubber. Mine had an approximately 5 cm thick rubber mattress that looked like an oatcake and was the wobbliest thing I have ever tried to lift – so _that’s_ where the muddy texture comes from. And this precise rubbery thing is wedged between layers and layers of natural cotton – which is fun to tear apart, only that you end up looking teared and feathered, as the cotton rubs off easily. And you breathe it, too, which was not so agreeable.

I tried recycling some of the rubber and cotton myself and use it as a cleaning cloth, e.g. for windows and floors. Not recommended. If you ever cut up your futon, just throw its content away as is.

Big Clouds

August 22, 2007 at 8:01 am | Posted in Landscape, Photography | 3 Comments


Ha! Funny Spam – and I love my MacBook Cam

August 21, 2007 at 7:26 pm | Posted in Spam | 1 Comment
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Here is my favourite spam mail subject line of the day:

From: Bauer []
Sent: Wed 22.08.2007 09:36
Subject: [PMX:SPAM] Kinder spielen zu viel? Hier ein portables TV mit DVB-T, dann ist Ruhe


From: Bauer []
Sent: Wed 22.08.2007 09:36
Subject: [PMX:SPAM] Children play to much? Here a portable TV with DVB receiver and then they’ll shut up

Also, I love the camera in my MacBook and all its silly effects.


Yay! First Invitation!

August 21, 2007 at 12:01 am | Posted in job search | 2 Comments

I am going to have my first (actually: second, but I invited myself on the first one) job interview on Friday! It feels damn good to be invited – if I manage to keep up the ratio of roughly 1 invitation in 20 applications, I should be able to defy job search depression.

Moving takes time

August 20, 2007 at 10:57 am | Posted in Uncategorized | 2 Comments

Once again, I am back in f*cking ole Dornburn, trying to finally and completely empty out the flat. I painted the walls yesterday, today I am trying to get rid of things such as a table, two chairs, the legs and lower body of a mannequin, a bike with a broken saddle, crockery, cutlery, an electric typewriter, strange books – hope I’ll find someone to take these items for free!

Old Chimney

August 19, 2007 at 8:30 am | Posted in Photography | 6 Comments


Wind Power

August 18, 2007 at 10:28 am | Posted in Landscape, Photography | Leave a comment

Wind Power

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